Friday Night Aug 1

I had a very traumatic night tonight... I got home from the movie with my dad and brother and needed to take my dose of Potassium, which is a liquid that goes through my NG tube but when I put it thru it kind of makes me nauseous.  So I started pushing it in and was feeling very sick but I was holding it back because in the hospital they said I don't want to throw up or the tube can come up.  Well I was trying to hold it back but it didn't work and I got sick and the tube came up, but not all the way so I was chocking on it and unable to call to my parents, finally it came out but was still causing discomfort since it was thru my nose and out my mouth.  By that time I call my mom in and she hurriedly pulled it out my nose.  So the NG tube is out. :( It feels good to have it out but it was really traumatic and now I know I have to go and get a PICC line. :( I am so frustrated I am tired of complications.  Its not fair and I don't feel like I can take much more.  I want to be getting ready for college and hanging out with friends and being somewhat of a normal 18 year old.  We are going to wait till Monday to do anything because nothing would happen on the weekend anyways.  That's all I have to write right now... Sorry it was pretty descriptive and kind of a pity party, I just needed to let it out.

More later!

Kylee