Contemplating...

                Well I wasn't going to put this on here because its kind of complex and confusing but I also feel like it is worth the importance of being put up here so I will try my best to put it into words on this blog...

                Lately I have been contemplating about becoming a nurse instead of an Elementary School Teacher, and I think it is because nursing has always interested me, but I just didn't know if I could pass the classes. (Reason being, I don't know if I could disect a cat, or a cadaver etc.) but I feel like I could be a nurse no problem.  And I know quite a bit about the medical field because I have dealt with it because of my disease and my mom being a nurse.  So lately I have been thinking about it.  Which made me start to think if I should come back to Fox. :( This makes me sad to think about but I want to do God's will for my life and I am wondering if this is it.  I could get my GEN ED classes out of the way and then do a 2-year nursing program and be done. And all of this could be done through community college.  Which also would be much cheaper.  I think something else that has gotten me thinking about this is that GFU only allows one Medical With-drawl, and so now I have used it.  And that makes me nervous to come back because "what if" I get sick again and have to drop out?  Then I am still paying them the 30,000 or whatever it is. :( I am not planning on getting sick again, and I am really thinking that the surgery will work but it's not a 100% guarantee, and so I am questioning what to do.  

               I love Fox and it's always been my dream to be here and I felt that Christ wanted me here, but now I am wondering if it was my desire to be here so I felt that God wanted me here or if He just wanted me here for the short time I was but now He wants me somewhere else? and there are also complications with staying home and doing community college, because I don't really have a room cause I can't move back in with Rachel and I don't think my parents want me living in their dining room for the next few years.  IDK but please pray for wisdom for me.  I want to do God's will, which will be what's best for me.  I hope all that made sense.  I feel like there's more but its always easier to talk it out then type lol. 

Hasta La Vista ~ more later!

Kylee