Update...

First off let me say my mom is doing much better... her only problem is that when she feels good she tries to do too much, so I have to be her little nurse and tell her to sit down and relax. :) I just want her to recover the best that she can and I don't want her to over do it too soon, it worries me some.

Now about me... :) I am doing "eh". don't know how to put it into words.  Not feeling great but also not feeling horrible.  Just don't feel like I can really do things, kind of feel "blah" :/  I am kind of getting nervous for my surgery.  I think I am most nervous for the afterwards.  I remember after my PEG placement (the 1st time) and afterwards waking up in the dark and no one around to help me and being in pain and uncomfortable and sleepy yet unable to sleep.  I just remember feeling anxious and irritable and feeling alone I guess.  So it was not a pleasant night and I just don't want that to happen again.  I just keep praying for good nurses and doctors and that I wont feel pain.  I will be slower to recover than my mom because doing things after a surgery makes me nervous, I would rather lie around and not be in pain than get up and walk and try to do things.  Which is also not a good thing because your suppose to walk so you don't get pneumonia and other things.  So overall, to sum it up I am nervous for afterwards.  I know for the surgery I will be out and fine but it's when I wake up again.  I'll maybe write again soon.